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Monday, June 14, 2010
Baaaaaby. Hahaaa , hey yoo. Just came back from so called Dance pract. Had a great waltz Dance pract with SNCO JR CHAN. Hahaa, well just brothaa and sistaa. Haaah, i dun care bout that. Annd to settle probs about RSM and one NCO. I'm nuetral. Not siding anyone. But just givin each one of'em hope. Simple to say, both of'em i love. LOVE AS A BROTHER AND ANOTHER ONE, AS A FRIEND. I don't want to lose them cause my heart already tattoed their name on it. To show that i'll never forget them. How can i possibly side one of them ? It's like not fair. And sometimes, 50% pity brother, 50% pity Dummy partner. You guys should understand being a middle man. I love you both maaan! But i can't barely seeing you both argue for just a small matter which makes one of you guys PISSED. I can't barely see you guys get seperated and not being UNITED AS ONE like we used to, before. Yaaaah, you can say that I don't understand and wadsoever but being in this kinda situation here, to me ... It's normal. Cause during the past, you guys do not knw how i get through all this. It's like, my situation during the past life, REALLY REALLY WORSE than this. It happens when i'm in PRIMARY SIX. Can you imagine? A PRIMARY SIX GIRL, HANDLE HER OWN SITUATION ALONE, WITHOUT ANYONE GIVIN ADVICES, WITHOT ANYONE SUPPORTED ME! And now, it's like ... this problem get repeated again and again but not to me but to my dear FRENDS. And i can't barely seeing you guys sufferin like this. MY PAST ! MY LIFE ! During 2008 was like really makin me sufferin and no one was on my side that TIME! After all the good deeds i done for my primary sch MATURED friends, and all i get WAS SHIT. YOUR SHIT THAT I HAVE TO WIPE IT MYSELF. Means, your bad deeds towards me. Towards me that I have to go thru myself. There was once, i wanted to give up and take a PEN KNIFE and just CUT myself without hesitating. But lucky I have BRAIN that GOD had given me to THINK. And now, i have to see my frends suffer just bcuz of this. I think that God wanted me to see for myself how my frends suffer. It's as though i'm sufferin and He wanted me to see how me, myself suffer for this DAMN thing. Come on guys, I hope you guys bein given strength to go thru all this. LoveYOuAll !
I miss you Maaaaan. Kinda Miss you LIKE HELL. Hahaa, sorry bout that. Msg and calls ... Still waitin in progress. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA =DD
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