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what theee ...
Friday, September 17, 2010
It's already 1 plus in the morning. And i'm still up yet . Eyes are not close. Though i feel so tired , restless and waiting for something to happend but in the end , it turn out to be in a different way. CCA as per normal , was given a task to do some inventory for our new ncdcc room. SNCO AMIRUL put me to incharge as i'm the room ic. Just to make sure the room is kept clean and watever you knw lah. Annnnd , i didn't manage to like finish the task all. As you knw -.-" kaaay , there's nothing for you to knw. Kay next ! Went home with alot of laughter. With Azurah , Siti annnd Nadia . Ouh and Nigel . went home anddd den got myself cleaned ! FRESH , hell yeah. HEHE , and off for 45 minutes nap. DINNERRRRRR with dad and bro.
Done with dishes , asked dad for a permission for JALAN RAYA with those kaki gereks. Dad gave me a lecture says , i have to go home and reach home by 6.30. I was likeeeeeee . Kay fine , cuz me and family have to send bro to the airpork. SORRY , airport . He's goin for overseas at brisbane. OHHH YIPEEEE. Hahaa , good luck bro. Kaaay , just wna say .......... I'm quite dissappointed tda. With dad. Not just today but the whole week ! I don't knwwww ouhkay ! Out of sudden , these few weeks dad always put those blames on me. THINK WHAT ?! I got feelings too. Dad , just wna add on. I'm ur daughter , dad. And whatever things you said to me , whatever words you thrown to me that is in a bad waaaay , it hurts so much that it's not easy for me to forget it just like that. YOU MAKE ME THINK OF YOUR WORDS EVEN WHEN I'M TRYNNA SLEEP. And each time , i went to school ... eyes were half open. I'm lack of sleep ! HELLO , I asked for ur forgiveness on the first day of raya , there's a reason why i cried. It's not about many mistakes i've done but it's about those words that you've thrown to me INTO MY FACE ! Hurts so much that it makes me cry behind everybody's back. YESH , ur my dad. BELOVED dad. Yaaah and whatever. Not trynna be rude here but , if i were brave enough , if i'm so rude , probably i'll shout and fight back you knw. But i didn't do it . Why ?! Because , ily dad. I don't have a heart to shout back. I'm not like others. SHOUT BAD THINGS BACK TO THEIR PARENTS . HELL NO ! But you dare to say such bad things .
THAT'S THE REASON WHY I CAME HOME LATE EVERYDAY ! BECAUSE I TELL MYSELF THAT TO ME , I PREFER TO BE AROUND WITH MY FRIENDS WHO GIVE ME STRENGTH AND SUPPORT . EVEN POSSITIVE THINGS ! BUT NOT WITH MY FAMILY. BECAUSE NOW, WHAT I SEE IN FAMILY IS THAT , NOT EVEN POSSITIVE THINGS OR COMMENTS THAT CAME OUT FROM THEIR MOUTH. ALL IT CAME OUT IS , NEGATIVE THINGS ! INSULTINGS . all i get is this ? Thanks , you guys are such a good family member. I'm so touched. :'(
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